Birthday

My daughter turned five last week...to a mother this always a bitter sweet moment. Five...WOW! She is no longer a baby and she knows it too. Being a mother has been the most fulling job I've taken on. Even though I do not get paid to stay at home with them, I just love my children and being a stay at home mom!

I found that once I decided to stay at home with my children, women act differently towards me. Now, I understand that I am lucky, that I have gotten to stay at home with my girls and watch every milestone happen. I was there when they started to crawl, walk, talk etc...I am truly blessed to have had the opportunity to watch all of this. But it always puzzles me when a woman (who works) asks me "What do you do for a living?"  And my response is, "I stay at home with my kids." At this point in the conversation, there is usually a moment of silence, like at a ball game, you know, "a moment of silence for so and so who passed away." I mean, its very uncomfortable!  Then I get the "oooh," then nothing.  They usually turn their heads and starting talking to someone else.  Now sometimes, generally this is from a man, they will say "wow, that is a hard job."  Really?  Why is this?  Why are women so uncomfortable now days with women who makes a choice to raise their kids and stay at home with them? Is this not the age where a woman finally has a choice? A choice to either work, or to stay at home...40 years ago they didn't have a choice. Women stayed at home, period!

Like I said earlier, some women do not have a choice, they have to work. They have to help bring home food etc...so the family is provided for. Those type of women, are usually more open about the idea. They usually, say to me, "oh, I wish I could have stayed home with my kids." And I have to give it to them, I do not see how their houses stay clean, or how they have time to even brush their own teeth!  But its the women who do work but have a choice that get on my nerves. They look at me like I've grown three heads or something. Like I'm a loon for choosing to be a stay at home mom. 

So, I am here to say it LOUD and say it PROUD! I love being a stay at home mom! Its probably the best job I've had to date! And for you women that have an issue with this...tell me why?  I truly want to know, why does this make you so uncomfortable? I will not judge, I'm just curious. Is it that we have turned over the supporting of the family to a man, or is it that you just get bored staying at home?  I am just so glad that women in this time period have a choice. I would have hated to live during a time period where I didn't have a choice!

Missed Birthday's

Today will be a short post...not much time due to me being a college student at the age of, oh lets just say 29.

Today would have been my sister, Jamie's 42nd birthday. I have missed the last 4, well technically I haven't missed them, but they weren't celebrated in the normal fashion. You know, with birthday cake, candles, phone calls, PRESENTS! I miss those birthday celebrations.

This morning, as my daughter Tabitha was counting down her birthday, 7 days on her little fingers. She counts them for me every morning. I think its just to remind me that "hey my birthday is coming."  But this got me thinking about my sister, and about when she was a child and counting down her birthday on her "little fingers." It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it.

But I shouldn't be sad today! Today is a day that a wonderful woman was born, who lived for her children and taught me what true love really looked like. Even though we lost her at a young age, I thank God we got to spend the time with her we did on Earth. As the saying goes, ( I believe this saying was in the movie Steel Magnolias) "I would rather have thirty minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special. "  My sister was that moment of something special, I'd rather have had that than nothing at all. 

So in celebration, Happy Birthday my big sis Jamie!

I've never done this before...

Really me? Starting a blog...NEVER! Oh, yeah here it is. I've wanted to do this for over a year. Why? I have no clue. I thought it would be fun. A place to write what I feel, what I go through on a daily basis, (oh, that will be soooo boring) a place to vent! (that might be interesting) Maybe someone will read it...maybe...Now I just got to figure out how to post pics and I will be set! Oh, and figure out what the heck to write about!

One of my favorite quotes to inspire me!

Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting. So... get on your way.

~Dr. Seuss~